Yeah Blog. You’ve been a good mate when I thought I had no one. And here I’ve been able to speak on matters closest to my heart. Air my grievances (though I deleted three posts recently because I was concerned they went too far).
And today we had the mediation meeting and Praise the Lord. Or Stephen W. It went well folks. It was never going to accomplish everything I might have liked. But in the space of a mere forty-five minutes, unbelievably, we had something approaching peace.
A truce. I’ve been at war with Equals for the best part of a year. And I quite honestly and truthfully say, it nearly killed me. Don’t try and bully a bully folks. I only tried to take on an organisation of four people two of whom were a close friend and my partner!!!
And they took me at my word and believed themselves to be the victims! I must be more persuasive with my pen than I could ever have imagined.
I felt a bit sad after the meeting. Just the regret that we had not put things straight eight months ago. I’ve suffered horribly. No one gained. Bullying just isn’t cost-effective or energy-effective. It’s completely counter-productive and it destroys relationships.
But in God’s world, they tell me, everything happens for a reason. And I have started down a new path. Changed. Learned. Grown.
And I guess I didn’t know my own strength. If an organisation of four people think you’re a massive threat to their survival…little me, a humble service user and volunteer! Well, I guess I could take it as a crazy sort of compliment?
And I’m waiting on my Mum’s arrival now. Looking forward to seeing her, in a good space mentally, and in a mood to take her out for a lavish Indian veggie meal to celebrate.
I now know a lot more about bullying than I did before. ‘Bully In Sight’, by Tim Field. Forewarned is forearmed.
Wonderful Polar Bear workshop with A this morning. She is beautiful, creative and gifted, and she wants to take photos of me looking beautiful. And I’m SO looking forward to that.
So no, I’m not gonna check out of existence just yet folks. Let’s see what’s around the next corner first.
For the first time in one helluva long time.
C’mon Mum. Where are you?
Lotsa love and big hugs (throw in some kisses too if you like) Zoe xxx